“Instructions for living a life.
Pay attention.
Be astonished.
Tell about it.”
—Mary Oliver
WHOA
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Heading here in 3.5 months!
Today I:
- went to the dentist.
- ran 4.5 miles.
- found this tiny pine cone while running.
- repurposed an old bookshelf and put it in my room.
- later found out that the bookshelf belonged to my brother. now it has no doors. and my brother is not very happy. oopz sorry!
- made a smoothie.
- ate a smoothie.
- took a shower.
- ok yeah, that’s all i did today.
- i’m really struggling to find motivation. to do ANYTHING. problem!
Favorite Album of the moment: Hearts by favorite Swedish band of the moment: I Break Horses.
Never, in peace or war, commit your virtue or your happiness to the future. Happy work is best done by the man who takes his long-term plans somewhat lightly and works from moment to moment “as to the Lord.” It is only our DAILY bread that we are encouraged to ask for. The present is the only time in which any duty can be done or any grace received.
C.S. Lewis
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wwwwWWWWHOOOOOOAAAAA!!!!!!
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Post-Graduation Reflections
My friend Jared told me to keep track of the train of sentiments that I feel now that I’m out of school, because my feelings will fluctuate and that fluctuation will (hopefully) be something worth remembering. So here’s a by-no-means-exhaustive list of the feelings I’ve been feeling in the past few days since my senior show. Enjoy.
1. Exhaustion. Is that what they call it when your eyes and your ears and your back and your head and your limbs and your teeth ache and you want to cry as soon as you wake up in the morning because just the thought of getting out of bed seems too much to handle? Yeah…exhaustion. That’s what pulling 4 all-nighters the week of graduation will do to you. That was my first sentiment.
2. Death. Pangs of jealousy toward Elijah or whateverhisfacewas who got taken up to Heaven by way of the fiery staircase….totally not fair. God, have a heart and take ME. NOW!!!!!!! This was sentiment #2.
3. Apathy. Couldn’t I just have done the whole “graduating in absentia” thing and carted my butt off to some serene mountainous location for the weekend?
4. Hunger. Been eatin loads o meat recently, it’s weird. Chicken mostly.
5. Frivolity. Spending (literally) hundreds of dollars on things all related to making my portfolio as beautiful as possible and then suddenly realizing that it is all over, and maybe it wasn’t worth the monetary sacrifice.
6. Confusion. What do I think about now that the thing that has taken up the majority of my mental capacity for the past 4 years is….over? Major confusion for my brain patterns.
7. Withdrawal. Really? Yeah…I think so. I haven’t opened photoshop or illustrator since Wednesday night and I am experiencing withdrawal.
8. Two words: Binge eating.
9. Two more words: Binge sleeping.
10. One more word: Crying. Tears of joy. I don’t have to EVER deal with portfolio review again. Geez…I’m getting all misty even now.
11. Overwhelmedness. Back to #10…lots of people helped me and encouraged me and bought me flowers and gave me food and listened to my woes and came to visit me and complimented my work. I’ve never been so encouraged in my life. Bring on the tears.
12. Thankfulness. People have been good to me. God has been really good to me. I did it! And somehow, despite my hard drive crashing and me losing all my files and countless other struggles that have threatened to keep me from finishing, I did my best. I seriously don’t think my portfolio could have been any better. And I’m really thankful for that. In a little while, this will mean more to me and I will be even more thankful. For now, I’m just breathing deeper (except for the fact that I’m allergic to grass pollen) and letting it all sink in.
How will I know?
